This blog post was going to be about Shelly but...nah I'm kidding it is. Kinda. . .
Here is where I get to say what I don't really think, but rather my outside thoughts that cover up my inside thoughts. Really this should of been posted before the last blog, but whatever yo. Last night was pretty crazy. She was going HAM on me and even called me a pussy and a bitch twice. :( I was at work today and usually the only thing I think about at work is whatever was on my mind last and that happen to be Nick and Shelly. Mainly Shelly though because Nick couldn't talk at the time but it felt as if the whole conversation kept playing in my head over and over. She was stuck in my head all day and I couldn't do anything about it. I was trapped in the hospital surrounded by people I didn't want to talk to so I couldn't change my train of thought. I tried to get her our of my mind by talking to my only friend at work but he was depressed because his baby mom claimed all his kids on her taxes so that didn't help at all. While thinking I even considered going to Canada possibly during the summer or when I decide to take a vacation. I thought of the things we'd do and the games we'd play all the way up to the point I had to return home. Yes, 12 hour days are no joke. My mind was running all day. I'm still iffy on the Canada thought though. I don't like the cold too much and I don't like Shelly too much either. (hah! I gotchu back)
I thought about Nick a little bit today as well. I wonder how Laura and him are doing. He doesn't bring her up as much as he used to but I know he still loves her. Him and I have very common personalities when it comes to women but he's a little less sensitive about certain things. I also kind of wonder about Pentao and Alto (Dys). It seems like being together with the whole Skype gang would be kind of fun if we didn't invite Hector (lol no I'm kidding, Hector is a pretty cool guy). Man I'd kill to have these friend in real life I swear. Were all different races, ages and background and get along so well. That's a very rare find in North Carolina where the only friends I get are the girls interested in me and that's no fun at all. Sometimes I wonder....and I was also thinking this at work...What will happen when we all go our separate ways? Will one leave and the rest slowly leave thereafter? Will we quit rumble fighter and all get caught up in our own relationships? What if we split up and after a few years everyone is married with careers and kids? I guess you can't change some things so it's good to enjoy the times that we do have together because we all know it won't last forever. Sure maybe some of us will keep in touch or our relationship with one will grow into something more making us keep in touch. Who knows? Ugh..I'd definitely miss Shelly I'm sad to say but what can you do?
Guess it's best to enjoy every moment we spend together because we'll never know when we will play our last round.
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