Pissed off

No picture this time because...because...I'm pretty salty right now and you don't want to see me upset. So I'll just go ahead and jump into it.


Today was fine starting out. I woke up late as usual for work and went in 2 minutes late as I always do on my 12 hour shifts. Twelve hour shifts are No Joke. I go in at 5:30 and leave at 7pm. The only thing that really makes it 12 hours is my lunch break which is an hour and a half long. So in reality I'm at work for 13 and a half hours :> Then I come home and do my online classes which take 2-4 hours. By that time its about 10-11pm before I have time to do anything. And if I have to get up early the next day, I'll be sleep by the time I'm done with school.


So with all that said, my mom comes in today and says "I told you to fix that chair yesterday and you didn't do it". It was a chair I assmebled for my little brothers that I put together wrong because I was totally drained from work when I came in. And the reason I didn't assemble it again last night is because I had to be at work at 5am. So she's fussing at me about how I can't do anything right and how sorry I've become. Well fuck that. Excuse my language but I'm pretty mad. 


I can't stand my mom. I never ever liked her even for one day I never liked anything about my mom ever. The fact that she gave birth to me even disgusts me and I would have rather of been adopted and I'm not even kidding. My father sits outside smoking all the time. He said he'd quit and bought an electronic cigarette to help him quit but he's back at it again. At this rate he's going to die within the next 10 years so I'm already kind of preparing for that. 


I may be the one kid that just cuts himself off from his family altogether. Like move away and don't call or anything. I know people like that and they live drama free lives. I've actually been considering it. I like my dad a lot but sometimes I wonder why he married this crazy woman. She needs medicine the way she talks to people. I'm saving up money still...slowly but surely I'll have my own place. No roomates or anything, just me by myself. Kevin Hart with it all day. I'll work, go to school, pay my bills, and do that until I graduate and succeed with a better job. The only thing stopping me is this $4500 I owe the University of Phoenix for taking 2 classes then leaving. I'll pay them soon but they want their payment in full which is just slowing me down. I also need a new car because the Jaguar is reaching it's limit. I can hear her dying a little bit everyday. 


It's Jasmine's birthday and her gift still hasn't arrived, ugh. Oh well she said she'd wait but still I'm a little salty about it. I get to see her tomorrow finally. My head hurts. I'm so confused. I don't even know what to do because so much needs to get done for me to get out of here. I need to get a new car, but I may need a co-signer because I don''t have a credit history. I need a new air matress which is like $200. At least so it'll hold me until I get a king size bed. I need to pay this debt to Phoenix. I need to convince Jasmine I can take care of her. I need to convince her parents I can take care of her. I need to kill this addiction to my computer as well. So much needs to be done and I've always procrastinated as to when to start this big change. Sigh. I need motivation...but where...

Bad Day

Oh there will be a picture but it won't be of me, don't worry. I'm just ranting really. Today is definetly Friday the 13th because nothing but bad things have happen to me all day F****in long! So I wake up voluntarily. Do you know that's the worst way to wake up?! Have someone else to wake you up. I hate that.


Then I'm playing Rumble Fighter for a few hours and all the rooms I go in are full of scrubs! Like it's 4v4 and I get 4 newbies that are like "Hi, I'm bob.  I ditch my teamates and don't give a fluxcompacitor about anyone but myself. I should be in beginner channel but that would just make your day better". UGH!


Then some dude adds me on facebook because one of my friends in middle school was telling him about how me and my "twin" (friend) used to slap box all the time and everyone would get a good laugh out of it. Then he's like "Add me on xbox homie." and I'm all like....F*** yo Xbox Nigga!


Then I try to play street fighter x tekken with my fight stick and I ended up jamming my finger somehow which is a first. How do you jam your finger playing video games? What the DUKKKKKK!


Then my dad comes in the room and he's all like "you need to take your two little brothers to therapy". I was like..."Jail Nah!" I did it Tuesday and I have homework to get done so I can't do it. Then my mom yells at me and tells me to return the car so she can take me to work which actually wastes MORE GAS. Yeah! Fluck the fact that gas is already $4.00 a gallon because that car runs on premium! But of course you wouldn't care because you don't work! I'm the only one in my household that actually goes to work. And pays for most of their mistakes. I should get my own freakin place.


To make things better I leave for work and notice how bad my day has gone so I go to Jasmine's house because I missed Jasmine. It was just in my heart to see her today and I did and she was beautiful as always and happy to see me...as always....:>


THEN I WENT TO WORK! FLUCK!!!! Omg So my supervisor had me train this new guy and I'm a nice guy so I let him do everything on his own to get a feel for it and he ends up being really slow but he was just slowing me down. And I'm like ugh why me....


Omg then! I went to train him on the 6th floor and if you remember correctly you know who is on the 6th floor right? That's right...ANGIE! UGH! Omg why does she have to work today. And the worst part is I saw Angie and Angie saw me. We did not speak, we did not smile we just acted like strangers but in the end I know it hurt us both. Maybe it's better that way because she didn't even give me a chance hmph.Then all the nurse look at me like "Oh that's that one boy that tried to holler at Angie...yeah girl". And I'm all like:

Then I go home after being the last one to go home from work. I get in the car and every single road I was on there was a police officer. What the...chuck e cheese sippy cup is going on around here. What did I do wrong?! I got on the interstate and I switch lanes and boom! A truck is right there honking at me and calling me a mother lucker. So now I'm all shook up.


Jesus help me. I just wanted a good day. I'm not a bad guy. I have a lot of good in my heart and I help people every day whether they ask for it or not : ( Sigh...

This is the real Daryl.


So I let Jasmine use my computer one day and forgot to log out my blogspot account. FML.  Yes all those post below this one belong to her. K thanks bye.

:>

Hi! My name is Daryl. I'm 21 and I like vidya games. I say weird things like Chillin like a gelatin and I do nice things like let Jasmine borrow my laptop for a very important assignment. I go to college and I work a lot. I use this face a lot: :> which indicates that I'm happy. I can actually make this face with my actual mouth. I am very, very, smart and I love the computer. I like Rumble Fighter and Twisted Metal. I have a big family and I like this chick named Jasmine. She soooo cool. She likes me back so that means I have swag. I am a very sweet and funny person and that's why she likes me so. I'm getting her something great for her birthday. I'd tell you but I don't know what it is lol. But it'll be great. :> I have a blog called daryl101.blogspot.com OH LOOK you're here well welcome! Hi! My name is Daryl. I'm 21 and I like vidya games. I say weird things like Chillin like a gelatin and I do nice things like let people borrow my laptop. I go to college and I work a lot. I use this face a lot: :> which indicates that I'm happy. I can actually make this face with my actual mouth. I am very, very, smart and I love the computer. I like Rumble Fighter and Twisted Metal. I have a big family and I like this chick named Jasmine. She soooo cool. She likes me back so that means I have swag. I am a very sweet and funny person and that's why she likes me so. I'm getting her something great for her birthday. I'd tell you but I don't know what it is lol. But it'll be great. :> I have a blog called daryl101.blogspot.com OH LOOK you're here well welcome!Hi! My name is Daryl. I'm 21 and I like vidya games. I say weird things like Chillin like a gelatin and I do nice things like let people borrow my laptop. I go to college and I work a lot. I use this face a lot: :> which indicates that I'm happy. I can actually make this face with my actual mouth. I am very, very, smart and I love the computer. I like Rumble Fighter and Twisted Metal. I have a big family and I like this chick named Jasmine. She soooo cool. She likes me back so that means I have swag. I am a very sweet and funny person and that's why she likes me so. I'm getting her something great for her birthday. I'd tell you but I don't know what it is lol. But it'll be great. :> I have a blog called daryl101.blogspot.com OH LOOK you're here well welcome! Hi! My name is Daryl. I'm 21 and I like vidya games. I say weird things like Chillin like a gelatin and I do nice things like let people borrow my laptop. I go to college and I work a lot. I use this face a lot: :> which indicates that I'm happy. I can actually make this face with my actual mouth. I am very, very, smart and I love the computer. I like Rumble Fighter and Twisted Metal. I have a big family and I like this chick named Jasmine. She soooo cool. She likes me back so that means I have swag. I am a very sweet and funny person and that's why she likes me so. I'm getting her something great for her birthday. I'd tell you but I don't know what it is lol. But it'll be great. :> I have a blog called daryl101.blogspot.com OH LOOK you're here well welcome!

Love, (notactuallydaryl) Jasmine <3

This one time, Daryl told me that Katamari Damacy was for the Playstation 1 and it made me happy because I HAVE a playstation 1 but then I was unhappy because it's actually NOT for the PS1 so then I did this:

and this:

Guise I even made him a sweater:

Daryl......

Nah, it's ok. Simple mistake! I still want that game though. That's my favorite game.
I actually just got some brand new spankin' PS1 games that have just been released. Except not really. They're old lol. Duh. I wish I could play them tonight BUTT I've got a report due tomorrow ;______; sheesh

This one time, Daryl and I were ~chillin~ in my backyard and he sat down and said, "Chillin like a gelatin".

face with many chins

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Jasmine

 

Yeah the quality is pretty bad but that is my new fight stick with my new poster that I stole fro....I mean Game Stop was nice enough to give me their gigantic poster for free. Isn't that great?! Overall the fight stick is pretty hard to use but I have to practice with it. Anyway lets move to the subject at hand playah!

Jasmine.

For those of you that don't know who Jasmine is allow me to inform you. Jasmine is the little sister of my lifetime best friend. I would always go over my friends house to play video games and Jasmine was always there. Although when I was younger she wasn't interested in me but I had always thought she was really pretty but had to keep my distance because its my best friend, ya know? So Jasmine is this silly, smart, and energetic girl that does random things and she's about my height which is pretty freaking tall for a girl. When I returned to NC two years ago we kind of hit it off unknowingly...then we started texting...texting turned to sexting and sexting turned into ...her parents finding out, but not her brother. So after her texting was turned off I guess she figured "forget Daryl" and dated some guy named Ben. At that point I was pretty much on the prowl for any and every beautiful girl I ran into which includes but not limited to: Angie, Kim, Denita,...yeah yeah yeah. So I kinda wished her happy days with this Ben guy...but then they broke up. 

I had no idea what Jasmine was thinking when she started to date Ben nor when she started gaining feelings for me again. It was really throwing me off at first but I decided to play along with it. However, some reason I do feel as kind of a backup or a hook for a broken heart to cling to thats why I'm not totally comfortable with moving forward. But there has been a turn of events...

Jasmine is what I'd like to call "girl crazy" about me. She thinks about me all the time, waits for me to text her (I know she does. I can tell by her responses), doesn't like it when I'm busy, dreams about me, eat, sleeps, breathes, and blinks Daryl all the time. This stage is called the infatuation stage. Ashely and I went through this stage and we now no longer talk to each other. The infatuation stage isn't a bad thing at all. I'm actually really flattered by it. But I don't want to be around when things reach the "comfortable" stage and she's all like "eh" "whatever" "meh" around me because it happens. Were not perfect. 

All things aside Jasmine is my number 1 candidate at the moment when it comes to girls I'm talking to. She goes to church which may seem average but let me tell you...I haven't met a church going girl in YEARS! She loves God, she gets upset with herself when she lies, she's fragile, a virgin, loves video games and wants to get married. What more can you possibly ask for? Lately I have been thinking about Jasmine quite often. Whenever I think of the future, which I do everyday, she's in it. Whenever I think of a girlfriend, she's the one I think of. Although I try not to rush these things, Jasmine is on my mind a lot more than I have been paying attention to realize. Oh...

Yeah...

I almost forgot...

So this is my blog right?

And you guys are cool right?

And what I say here won't be repeated in my face right?

And if it is then you know I'm totally going to uppercut you to outer space right?! (thumbs up for epic Shoryukens)

Okay, great!

Jasmine...is like my walking sin. I love tall girls, but I also love tall girls that have a nice body. Jasmine has a really really really nice body and it can go from slim to thick within months and in vice-versa too! *swooooon* She has the glasses that makes her look like a secretary. I swear I'm the sucker type for those. Girls if you ever want to know how to lure me in, put those babies on and look above your frames at me. Automatic hug and probably kiss if you're lucky. Jasmine is probably the only girl I would totally sleep with and have zero regrets about it even if she had quadruplets. Her legs remind me of Chun-li's...yes :> And her hair...well sometimes its in styles I don't like too much, but when its straight down I kind of get a little too touchy with her, I can't help it. If we ever get married I can honestly say that I feel sorry for her....and the things I'm going to do to her...In fact if she was alone right now I'd....Alright lets calm down. I do respect Jasmine for waiting until marriage because I want to wait until marriage too but dammit Jasmine...You can't be wearing all this sexy gear all the time :( But she does it for me..I know :)

I care about Jasmine. I know she'd be a great mother since her parents pretty much makes her play Cinderella all her life cleaning the house. To be totally honest, I want to wait until she's 21. That way she is well stabled with her life and future and I'm not in the way or anything. Besides I know by that time she will extremely attractive much like her other model family members that I see on her refrigerator that taunt me every time I come over. I'd love to show her off at that point. Hell, I'll carry her through the mall in my arms to every store, even the candy store in my best suit with a lollipop in my mouth. By then she will also be done growing...and maturing...but most importantly and most seriously...she'll be more experienced. I'm not talking about sex. I'm talking about relationships. By that age Jasmine will definitely know who she wants. She will know the bull crap guys put her through and she will experience bad relationships. You must experience the bad before you can appreciate the good. Although I'm not saying I'll wait until she's 21...I'm just saying that is my preferred age to be with her. Since I think her parents kind of think I'm a real creeper and her brother is kinda iffy and it may be kinda awkward going to their house and being all like...Oh I'm not here for my friend I'm here for Jasmine. Oh god and just imagine the time she's pregnant. I can imagine the look on her mom's face. No matter what age she is she'll be all like "You dirty little boy". LOL. Anyway I think I covered everything. 

I typed this out because I knew once I started playing my video games tonight I wasn't stopping until 3 in the morning. Later!

Kathy and Morgan? What?!

 What's the behind me? An air mattress! Why?! Because I sleep on the floor, like a boss...of a...poorly ran company...


Alright before I get into this, the people who don't know who I'm about to talk about need to be informed as to who I'm talking about in this post. This one is about a dream I had last night of two different people named Kathy and Morgan. Why I dreamed of these people, I don't know. These two are probably near the last people I would ever think of dreaming of so that's why it's significant.


Kathy is the daughter of a woman who works with me at the hospital. This woman would talk to me about her daughter every day but it never crossed my mind as to who her daughter was or if I was even interested in meeting her. Then somehow Kathy ends up adding me on Facebook and she happens to be the daughter that this woman talks about everyday. Kathy is a nice girl with a lot of secrets. She seems like the type that wants to address everyone else s problems but her own. She's...above average on the attractive scale. And she's all about her  boyfriend since that seems to be the only thing that makes Kathy somewhat vulnerable on certain days. I met Kathy last September and we text back and forth quite often, but for all I know I'm not the only one in this texting pool. Kathy is...somewhat unapproachable when it comes to personal questions and me being as a down to earth guy...I just let time reveal all. Everyone knows that as time passes, people are revealed. So I guess we can call Kathy the mystery girl for now but she is a friend none-the-less.


Morgan is a girl I haven't talked to since I was 14 years old. She was my best friend growing up and a tomboy. Morgan and I went everywhere together growing up and her parents loved me. We went to Myrtle Beach, Disney World, Six Flags...places that college students go when they go on vacation. We did it big! But all on my parents expense, haha. When I spent time with Morgan the thought of us ever being together hardly came up but it was in the minds of us both. We were very young but we spent so much time together. Morgan was truly special to me. Until...one day, our neighbor Kenny instigated an argument between Morgan and I and we never came around to apologizing to each other because months later I moved to Indiana and she moved out of the neighborhood. Hadn't these events happen, Morgan could of possibly been my best friend and my life time partner. I recently added Morgan on facebook but we are both still bitter from that one day.


OK! Now that you know who Morgan and Kathy are.... to the dream!


Last night felt so real. It was a Sunday and my family and I were in the country going to church in a place that looked like it was built by slaves. My sister, Darchana and my father decided to walk with me to a Wal-Mart that was 4 miles away. On our way to the Wal-Mart I pulled out my phone and somehow purchased something with my debit card, from Wal-Mart through my phone and it was there waiting for me to pick up. Amazing right?! Its like I discovered a new type of technology in my dream! Ok maybe not really but it was cool to me.


We arrived at Wal-Mart and somehow my entire family showed up and went shopping without me. I stayed in the front of the store to look at a display of clothes that seemed to be pre-selected out of my own closet which was really bizarre. I was all like "WOW I already have this stuff!'. So my parents began to leave and they were looking at me so I hid and acted like I was looking at fruit cups for some reason...My mom found me and said its time to go then she changed her mind because I was looking at food...weird but efficient! I started to browse the back of the store where I ran into Kathy. I haven't seen Kathy since last year so my first thought was to give her a big hug. Instead, this girl literally ran toward me and picked me off the floor like this was some type of chick flick! I got over the awkwardness and we caught up. Kathy looked different today, she had her glasses on and everything but her hair was in an afro. Which to me looked really nice but at the time I couldn't figure out why. As I began to leave Kathy started hugging my leg saying "please don't go!". I was like wow Kathy get off me! haha. It started to hurt but I liked it.


After that I was somehow transported to heaven or a place similar to heaven. It was an empty realm. Like the type you see in the Matrix or video games...nothing but empty space and a voice. The voice said "did you forget about me?". It sounded like Morgan. It was Morgan! It was Morgan all grown up and she looked amazing. But then appeared Kathy...the same Kathy I saw at Wal-Mart. They stood next to each other and as I looked at them both I couldn't help but to notice the resemblance. The only difference between Kathy and Morgan was that Kathy wore glasses and Morgan didn't. Everything else was the same from the skin color to the Afro. I liked the Afro, especially when Morgan made it into a big puff pony tail. I then realized a whole bunch of things....


Am I using Kathy to replace Morgan?


Could me becoming Kathy's friend possibly have something to do with the resemblances?

What kind of future am I likely to expect from being friends with Kathy?

Do I like Kathy or do I miss Morgan?

Do I miss Kathy or do I like Morgan?

Why does Kathy treat me like a vulture over her precious relationship more than a friend? 


Why didn't Morgan apologize first?


Should I try to make up with Morgan and pick up where we left off after almost a decade?

Who is Kathy? And what does she  see in me that makes her want to be friends so much? I mean its not like she already has a thousand and one guy friends on Facebook


What could I have changed that day so that Morgan and I could of lasted up to this point?


I don't know the answer to any of these questions, but the dream was quite significant seeing as these two are a rare appearance in my daily life. But I'll find the answers while I'm living or when I die. I just know I'll find them. Until next time guys. Peace.